ember's headspace

hi! this is a personal spot to explain my identity in more depth

when in doubt: i'm ember. i use she/they pronouns.

name ember
pronouns she/her
species human
realness 95%; you are talking to ember
where to find in-person, at my physical body, all the time
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the classic! ember loves learning how to solve problems and sharing knowledge with others. she loves having a sense of how others see her, and has a hard time not trying to put her name on anything she leaves a mark on.

ember laughs at most things to get through her day. she struggles with handling bouts of rejection-sensitive-dysphoria when something really won't settle in the back of her head.

she tends to draw herself as an ambiguous blobby bird with parrot-like headfeathers. cause it looks nice.

name crow
pronouns it/they
species crow!!
realness 80%; regular visitor
where to find any cutesy conversation about birds
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a real crow! caws and talks in a crow-like squeaky voice. very silly. comes out unplanned.

name varia
pronouns she/her
species bird
realness 60%; occasional second-self
where to find furry conventions, home, among other furries
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the mascot for goodnight girl, and also ember's image of self-ownership and self-growth. varia likes to be comfy and physically loved by others, be it hugging others while wearing something soft, being a warm pillow for her partner, or having her white-pink down complemented.

she's found that cawing is a great way to nullify the feeling of an intrusive thought, because she's just a silly bird.

name daryl
pronouns he/they
species black capped chickadee
realness 0%; fictional character, icon
where to find on-stage, online through social media/forums
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my first named fursona. daryl represents my masculine side. i use him as a way to convey deeper and angstier thoughts about life and the nature of romance. i enjoy being him to create art, but i would feel uncomfortable if someone tried to talk to me in person as daryl. i prefer him as a muse and a character who i'm invested in giving life through my art.

name gil(l)
pronouns he/him
species crow/bald eagle/shoebill
realness 30%; lucky to spot
where to find at the skatepark, in a smash tourament
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my personal ownership of the idea of masculinity, in a way where i feel more ownership over gil's name and identity. he's let me re-engage with the bits i liked personally about masculinity and want to carry out into the real world, like having hairy legs, speaking with a low voice, and not being afraid to be boy-ish.

it's hard not to slip into gil when i'm skateboarding, competitive gaming, or enjoying the rowdy company of some dudes.

abandoned selves

they were useful for me to help figure out where i sit now with my identity. may they be remembered for being a crucial stepping stone.